Tuesday, January 20, 2009

the devil wears me

what makes a devil ?

having guts. having too much pride. not caring about what people think. not caring about others, period. always think of herself prior to others. me, me, and, me. seeks revenge, sweet is preferred. demands 100% satisfaction. gives no service. shows no mercy. gives no tolerance, non-what-so-ever. selfish. demands attention and knows how to do so. regrets nothing. say what she means, not what others want to hear. aware of her advantages and use them unwisely. no guilt. not even a bit. basically trying to take care of herself and realizes that life's short. why waste it by being a boring-sad-uncomplicated-fake-wannabe-innocent angel?

why waste time by not being someone who was born on the 19th of september '88 and goes by the middle name of krystle...

Sunday, December 7, 2008

wonders of my world

take me here, and i will love you forever

Saturday, December 6, 2008

bunda, my guardian angel

just had a long freezing day, me and my sister decided to make the best out of it still tho :) we went out anyway. on the way home while waiting for the bus, came this little girl with her mother. i know she was freezing but somehow it didn't really matter as long as her mother was with her. she was smiling and laughing and had a good time knowing no matter what happens, her mother will always keep her warm. and just like that, i wish i was home. i wish i was with my mom.

i miss her warm hugs. i miss the way she kisses my pain away. i miss the way she comfort me. i miss the way she throws away black clouds that cover the sunshine from shining through my window. i miss the way she hold me tight and tell me that everything is going to be okay. i miss the way she wishes to take all my pain away. i miss the way she does it.

she makes me realize that i am more than just a person. i am God's given for her. i am her most valuable treasure. she risked her life for getting me into the world. she was in that life and death situation when she introduced me to the world.

she loves me when i wasn't nice at her. she loves me when i smile. she loves me when i cry. she loves me when i make mistakes. she loves me when i repeat them. she loves me for being lazy. she loves me for being dumb. she loves me for being smart. she loves me for being her daughter. she loves me for who i am. she loves me no matter what.

she prays for my happiness when she herself hurts sometimes. she wishes me good health when she is ill. she smiles for me even if she feels like crying. she is strong for me when i am weak. she is the air that i breathe when i suffocate. she is the love that i have. she is the love that i share.

20 years already. i wish i knew her sooner than that.

now, im here in another country. another part of the world. im far away from her. what if she needs me? what if she needs shoulders to cry on? what if she needs to be comforted?

she told me that it was the hardest thing to see me go away for college. but then she said
'parents shouldn't be selfish to keep their children away from getting their dreams, and i'm going to be strong to stop myself from doing so'

if there is one thing that i can do right now, is to hold her tight and tell her that im okay. and that i miss her and love her and sorry for all the wrongs i've done. and that i'll be back home in no time :)

Friday, November 28, 2008

quote of the day

i'd like to see things your way, but i'm not sure if i can stick my head that far up my ASS!!!

Monday, November 24, 2008

dear S,

If you haven't noticed, its not that easy for me and my three fav. gfs to spend quality time together. Seriously, its so expensive its not even funny. LOL they know what i mean. Anyway, we've been trying to dine out and stuff since the beginning of this semester but it always ends up with one of us couldn't make it leaving the family portrait missing one of its member inside the frame every single time. Usually, that would be me or Angel, hahahaha. But, as you can see above, the family portrait is (finally) complete.

With that being said,

Yup, today's Citra's birthday and we decide to do something special which we have worked hard for. By 'working hard' we meant lying, manipulating, and using someone else's name to hide the plan from the birthday girl. Anything illegal that could lead to a successful result, we welcomed with a grateful heart teehee. Anyway, to make the long story short, we fooled the girl and had a BLASSZZTT!! From the pictures taking, the main course, the dessert, and all the way to the "pembersih wc" as Angel would call it...we couldn't stop laughing and enjoying the moment. This meant a lot concerning how hard it was for the four of us to even laugh in the same room together. The evening was awesome, it was refreshing to be lame, retarded, but not pathetic together with my fantastics.

Until then, you know you love me.

(metha loh cit..bukan..HAHAHHAHA)

Sunday, November 16, 2008

sa ha ba t

my who i want to meet list has turned out to be my QUIT YOUR LIFE & STAY WITH ME-ers.
this is for you:
muhammad toha harahap
joshua david kunze
chia paramitha
ryan makatsuji
abdul qowi bastian

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

'that one'


So he made history. My deepest, most honest CONGRATULATION for him, his family, his people, and all the Americans. If I were an American, I'd voter for change as well :) But I'm NOT. But why do I care that much about him winning? Or at least, why do I even care? I don't know him. He doesn't rule my country. Heck, he doesn't even care. Okay, so he spent sometime in Indonesia and all but it doesn't mean that he's going to do something with my country. Right?
But then again, I care and am happy that he's chosen to be the next president of the US of A when I don't even care..or even KNOW the presidential candidates for my own country. Whose fault is that?